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15 years ago today, I held your hand in mine
My skin was softer, my eyes were brighter,
but I doubt my heart was much lighter
Such a glorious morning, I’m sure I thought it that,
And that come nightfall, I would be with you
and all would be well when I kissed you
Fast forward and the mention of you
can still leave me stammering
Time wears on, we drift apart.
The heart can take a hammering.
I never knew until then, never felt it could be true,
That I could be seen, I could be known,
and ever after I’d be thrown...
Fast forward and the mention of you
can still leave me stammering
Time wears on, we drift apart.
The heart can take a hammering.
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Other Times
03:16
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There are times I fill a cup,
lift my feet out of the tub
Find in my pocket, a ticket stub,
and not think of you at all
There are times when I’ll heave a sigh,
and wonder at the days gone by
And gaze upon a starry sky,
and not think of you at all
Then there are the other times...
There are times out in the street
where I’m surprised to get out free
And I don’t think of you and me.
No, I don’t think of you at all.
There are mornings where I rise,
or afternoons of plans devised,
Or nights that as I close my eyes
I don’t think of you at all.
No, I don’t think of you at all.
Then there are the other times...
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Looking out the door I see the rain
fall upon the funeral mourners
Parading in a wake of sad relations
as their shoes fill up with water
Maybe I’m too young to keep good love from going wrong
But tonight you are on my mind so you’ll never know
Every inch of me is full of pain,
oh you should’ve come over
My broken bones can smell the rain
and they’re aching to be covered, oh,
And the rain, I want it to come down fast like kisses on my skin
But it passed me by, and it left me dry…
oh… lover, you should’ve come over
Will I wait for you, will I burn,
will I ever see your return?
Oh, will I ever learn, oh lover,
you should’ve come over, ’cause it’s not too late.
Lonely is the room the bed is made,
the open window lets the rain in
Oh burning in a corner is the only one
who dreams he had you with him
My body turns and yearns
for a sleep that won’t ever come
It’s never over, a kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder,
iit’s never ever all my riches for her smiles
when I slept so soft against her
It’s never over all my blood for the memories,
and the sweetness of her laughter
It’s never over...
she’s the tear that hangs inside my soul forever
Yes, and I feel too young to hold on
but much too old to break free and run
Too deaf dumb and blind to see the damage I’ve done
sweet lover, you should’ve come over,
(will I wait for you, lover?)
Lover you should’ve come over, it’s not too late.
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Halloween Song
04:38
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it's funny how these feelings are almost finally dead
and I can only now articulate what's been going through my head
over the last several years that I've been without him
now that those memories have suddenly all grown dim
even so, here I am still trying to grasp
the image of every sad smile, the sound of every quick gasp
anything that emanated from his perfect small frame
from the way he felt in my arms to the sound of his name
and I know I can't be transported back
to that single halloween...
where everything I knew had nothing to do
with my most-cherished, used-up dream
that single day that altered my way
was he right in that we were wrong,
that we never fit together enough all along?
and despite my present bliss, I'm still wondering about
where I might be now if we'd just seen what could've
all panned out...
but isn't that what young love's for?
isn't that why he found me
on my last childhood's hallow's eve to prove
the greatness of possibility,
where at any given point, I could leave one reality,
and join the wand'ring in a world of endless fantasy?
maybe I really was too weak,
and he was just too strong
maybe he never heard the right words,
maybe I never wrote the right song, maybe
I was just too past-obsessed and he was too forward-thinking
his eyes always open
and mine always blinking
I'll move along, it's just that I know what to miss;
the scent of his shirts, the taste of his kiss.
it's been that same first taste of love
I've had some trouble giving up.
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Puppy Love
03:45
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When I'm deepest in the darkness,
somehow your face still comes to light:
all its stillness, all its realness,
with the fullness of the night.
When I'm weeping, somehow, creeping,
your name carries through my breath,
as though you whisper while I'm sleeping,
so that I can never rest
and I know, yeah, I know
that this wasn't puppy love -
even if it wasn't quite enough
We were mired in the face of
finally finding something right,
but so tired beat by resistance
that we lost the will to fight
though I knew, no, I knew,
I’d never say goodbye to you -
even when you asked me to,
you should know, you should know
that you still hurt.
(For whatever that is worth).
and I know, yeah, I know
that this wasn't puppy love -
even if it wasn't quite enough
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As I Recall
03:06
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Maybe I’d shake
Maybe I’d wait
To see what you had to say
But either way
Maybe I won’t know
The right time to go
Maybe you’ll say goodbye
And I’ll cry
But as I recall I crashed
When I saw you last
Lost out in the rain, I fell
While your stony ground you held
So, when I see your face
Should I turn away?
We danced a lark of youth
In searching for some truth
And found it in a flame
Two parts of one same
We aged liike sweetened smoke
Warming, heady notes,
But bitter for the distance
And its curving risky road.
But as I recall you made
The choice that we should break
After all this time, I felt
This fragile heart you held
Lusted for release
Just one moment’s peace
From that fairest face
And your close embrace
While I’ll want to stay,
I should turn away
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More Than That
03:42
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Do you ever imagine what it might be like
if we had never met?
What if you had just stayed in bed,
if I had scored better on the math of my first SAT test,
Or if you had just gone home,
or I had never smoked,
or if you only ever had one senior year?
I might not be here,
I might never have left-
Do you ever think of where you’d be if we had never met?
Why should we pretend that we never did?
Why write it off as some dumb fling
we only shared ‘cause we were kids?
I know it was more, I know it was more,
I know it was more than that
Do you ever imagine what it might be like
if we had never kissed?
What if you had never paid the visit,
or I didn't get permission to go to Mary's
that Halloween like I wished,
Or if you had been broke,
or we weren't left alone,
in the mist, under the stars at the Top of the World?
I’d have never been your girl.
What would we have missed?
Do you ever think of where we’d be if we had never kissed?
Why should we pretend that we never did?
Why write it off as some dumb fling
we only shared ‘cause we were kids?
I know it was more, I know it was more,
I know it was more than that
Do you ever imagine what it might be like
if we had never fallen in love?
If on that Thanksgiving break,
we weren't same-time/same-place,
and we didn't get the chance to meet up?
If I had blown you off,
gone with that other guy,
might you have become a long time friend?
Could we have made amends
when push came to shove?
Do you ever wonder who you'd be if we never fell in love?
Why should we pretend that we never did?
Why write it off as some dumb fling
we only shared ‘cause we were kids?
I know it was more, I know it was more,
I know it was more than that
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These 15 Years
03:31
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Close my eyes, and listen hard.
Just like that, these 15 years
Of livin’ fast, and keepin’ on
without you, disappear.
I feel familiar tones
springing up and so,
If I mute just the right string,
maybe I still can make them sing…
Why don’t you call?
If you would just send me a sign that’d be fine,
but why nothing at all?
Are you ever walkin’ ‘round sometime,
and suddenly you find
You can’t quite help but feel as though
you left something behind?
And you hear just the right song,
and for a moment you are gone
Somewhere in a day gone by,
looking me in the eye?
Is that why you don’t call?
If I ever shot you a line, would you mind?
Should I say nothing at all?
Nothing at all…
nothing at all…
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9. |
Strings That Tie to You
02:15
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From the wrinkles on my forehead
to the mud upon my shoe
Everything’s a memory
with strings that tie to you.
In my dream I’m off and running
to a place that’s out of view
Of every kind of memory
with strings that tie to you.
And though a change has taken place
and I no longer do adore her
Still every god forsaken place
is always right around the corner
Now I know it’s either them or me,
so I’ll bury every clue
And every kind of memory
with strings that tie to you,
Every kind of memory
with strings that tie to you.
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One Big Dark Room Austin, Texas
After a sudden death of a loved one, singer-songwriter LEX LAND let her darker side take over. The songs of ONE BIG DARK ROOM explore deeper lyrical territory in the hope to help others process grief and regret, and lean on each other to get through this strange and unusual thing called Life. ... more
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