Halloween Song

from Joshua by One Big Dark Room

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it's funny how these feelings are almost finally dead
and I can only now articulate what's been going through my head
over the last several years that I've been without him
now that those memories have suddenly all grown dim

even so, here I am still trying to grasp
the image of every sad smile, the sound of every quick gasp
anything that emanated from his perfect small frame
from the way he felt in my arms to the sound of his name

and I know I can't be transported back
to that single halloween...
where everything I knew had nothing to do
with my most-cherished, used-up dream
that single day that altered my way

was he right in that we were wrong,
that we never fit together enough all along?
and despite my present bliss, I'm still wondering about
where I might be now if we'd just seen what could've
all panned out...

but isn't that what young love's for?
isn't that why he found me
on my last childhood's hallow's eve to prove
the greatness of possibility,
where at any given point, I could leave one reality,
and join the wand'ring in a world of endless fantasy?

maybe I really was too weak,
and he was just too strong
maybe he never heard the right words,
maybe I never wrote the right song, maybe
I was just too past-obsessed and he was too forward-thinking
his eyes always open
and mine always blinking

I'll move along, it's just that I know what to miss;
the scent of his shirts, the taste of his kiss.
it's been that same first taste of love
I've had some trouble giving up.

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from Joshua, released May 22, 2020

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One Big Dark Room Austin, Texas

After a sudden death of a loved one, singer-songwriter LEX LAND let her darker side take over. The songs of ONE BIG DARK ROOM explore deeper lyrical territory in the hope to help others process grief and regret, and lean on each other to get through this strange and unusual thing called Life. ... more

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